Dates in Portland

This is hard to come out at say but I just feel empty, numb. I've struggled with mental health illnesses and ptsd since I was about 11yrs old. About once or twice a year around this time I suffer most from manic depression and the aftermath of the mania is a loss of connection to the world basically. I usually end up getting trough it alone but simply having someone take the time to hold me and ground me does more than I could ever do alone...