_I have felt this way all my life, and I can be discrete, but I cant live anymore if I cant finally be my self. I'm 6 ft. 270(football player build)sandy blond slightly reddish hair. I am open to any thing extreme, anything submissive or dominate ,its just time for me to find someone to help me. I can be loyal to a fault. so if their is someone in the trans/gay community please let me know .