Hey I'm new, I'll update this more later but basically am interested in exploring some more or less "non sexual based kinks", understanding learning and dealing with fantasies of intimate violence, I will explain more and am opening to feeling into another's fantasy if it is all communicated and okay, POSSIBLY meet in a safe place to act out some things even, but I'm very much in love and involved, for me I cannot combine my fantasy within my love life, to This degree it would be too intense for me

Desires and Fantasies
-being beat up
-punched
-restrained physically
-tied up (i.e. tied to chair, bond wrists, ankles, that kinda shit; not extreme, please don't bombard me with head to toe bondage type stuff, I am not into that to that degree)
-abuse, particularly familial role (parent child, siblings, other family; not insest though, I my need some help expressing myself with this stuff please understand I'm new to talking about this stuff ...
**Please note I want to "play", and I am female but would prefer to play a male in this situation, but am open to playing a female character. For me this is not
The submission, begging, etc is important to me, it's an abuse fantasy/curiousity, someone trusting someone and being tortured by them, the humiliation, degrading talk, threatening, is as important of an aspect to me as the hitting...