Dates in Appleton

It seems I am after the most taboo of fetishes. Actual connection and intimacy, not just sex and sexual desire and pleasure. Not no strings attached, but all strings attached. I'm not talking about co dependency or even dating. Lets face it were all busy most of the time, or if your like me, being around people is taxing on my psyche.
So I'm looking for the person that can have a "casual hookup", where maybe the only time we get together is for the pre, sex, and post cuddle, but when we are together hearts and souls are fully open. I want to look in your eyes and see my love for you, reflecting back to me. I want to feel your heart beat on my chest and look into your eyes, while we cum together, and for a moment literally become one. The kind of intimacy where, after she came, she smiled at me, tears streaming down her cheeks. I asked what was wrong, but5 there was nothing wrong, its just shocking to us when everything is right for the first time. I want to find this, even if we only have those few moments together. That would make life bearable.