where is the girl or woman knowing her fetishes and limits. What she wants.
the one, who can truly submit and obey for the lust of her partner. who desperately wants to turn him on with everything she has. fullfilling all of his dreams within the limits.
preparing, showing and presenting herself 100%.
The one I can worship with all of my body, hands, tonge, senses. and toys. The one I can give everything she needs to be satisfied, holding still while I use her for my lust.
making her my slut behind closed doors. diving into this kinky naughty world we build up.
the one, telling me to obey and prepare. to be the living sextoy she wants to use for her lust and fantasies. preparing and using me all night long.
where is she? talking, feeling, breathing, thinking about life. together. building some kind of strong (perverted) intimacy.
I don't want to think in stereotypes anymore. but the only term which describes my feelings about those sexual roles is the definition of "switch", fetishist, kinkster... it's mixed up.
Trying to accept my side where I want to be cared and loved. Where I dont have to do anything. sexual and nonsexual. but always in a kinky way.
also im tired of using the word "kinky" - is there another word for being sexual, thinking about sex, having sex in my mind and seeing sex in everyday life stuff?
I know my fetishes and kinks for a while now, but the last months getting into more details. this is fun, but sad no one to share with.
(to be continued)