I say, I am lost, certainly alone, as everyone died, best friends, family, and the one most dear we were supposed to spend life together, well, it is what it is, all that was and supposed, planned for. Well it's all gone, ByeBye... Through it all, I've changed, I can't find that passion, that driving force. Not sure I ever will, I have desire again, to find a companion, a heavy handed sadistic type, I could go for some abuse, a little agony, maybe a glutton for punishment, or just can't lead, I don't know, makes my head hurt. So, I'm trying, its a start, we'll see.

Desires and Fantasies
my fantasy is to be the object of your fantasy,
only. Let's make it very reak